Let's start with the good news. I am going to AFRICA! I am so excited I can hardly stand it. I haven't let myself get excited the whole time we've been planning because there has always been a chance I wouldn't be able to go. Now that it is a sure thing, I can't stop thinking about what an adventure it will be.
The bad news is, I am not pregnant. Thankfully, my hCG numbers went down quickly and are almost back at baseline. While I am sad about it, I still feel a lot of peace and calm. I have actually felt a little bit numb for the past week. I will probably have a breakdown sometime since all of the feelings are still there, but until then, I am grateful for the peace I have had. I am also very grateful that it wasn't an ectopic pregnancy. Also, it's a good sign that one of the embryos made it to the point of starting to latch on. That means that at least one embryo made it to the last stage before pregnancy. Let's hope the frost babies can do a better job!
Thank you all for so much love and support. It has made the entire experience easier. All of your prayers have made me feel like everyone is helping me carry the burden and it has felt lighter. I am so grateful for all of you.
16 comments:
Natalie I'm so sorry that you are not pregnant, I was really rooting for you! Thanks for sharing your experience on your blog it made me feel a part of your life even though I'm not right there.
Yeah for Africa! Have a blast, I can't wait to see pictures and hear all about it!
You have such an amazing attitude and outlook. I admire you for your strength. Africa is going to be amazing, take lots of pictures!!!!!
We are going to now start praying for your frost babies.....
Nat, I'm so sad to hear that you're not expecting. On the other hand, there's nothing like a trip to Africa to take your mind off of it! I'm really jealous, that's definitely on my bucket list. You're amazing Nat, so patient and positive. Te pup! Have a great trip!
Thanks for letting us all be a part of your experience. We will keep you in our prayers.
Have fun in Africa!
We love you!!! Can't wait to see pics of Africa!!! What a fun experience you will have!
xoxo, Mallory
Remember - my sister had her first with a frost baby so maybe you can have the best of both worlds - a trip to Africa and a getting pregnant after! We are always thinking and praying for you.
natalie..
i'm so sorry it has taken me so long to respond to your comment on my infertility blog. i wish SO badly that you were not going through this. it is absolutely awful and you would not wish the emotional rollercoaster on your worst enemy. to answer your question, we never were told an exact diagnosis of our infertility. we know my husband has checked out great, so there is something wrong with my eggs. i have always ovulated on my own, with very regular cycles.. also, i responded super slow to the ivf protocols. we were so sick of the poor embryo quality with our first 2 ivfs that we finally decided to switch to more aggressive drs in las vegas (we're in utah). i'm so happy we did, but our 3rd cycle was a chemical pregnancy, probably a lot like what you're going through now. the pain is tough and you feel like you might just have to ok with never being pregnant again. i understand and i'm heartbroken for you. please don't hesitate to email me if you need advice, to vent, or just have questions no one else understands. maybe we can talk through it together. i hope and pray that you'll continue to be encircled by peace and love... and have so much fun in africa. thinking of you often.
ashley owens
ashandcam@gmail.com
our if blog is owensbabies.blogspot.com
Thanks for sharing this journey with all of us. You are still in our prayers. Your faith and strength are amazing through all of this! We love you.
Bless you in every way! What a blessing your trip to Africa will be for you...so happy you have something to look forward to. You are loved!
We are so sorry, but I just saw an article on Kilimanjaro and wow! I hope you guys have the trip of a lifetime! Can't wait to hear about it!
Natalie-
So bummed for you about not being pregnant. I will keep you guys in my prayers.
Africa?! Seriously that is so rad. You guys are going to have so much fun. Are you taking Taylor? Such a blast.
I'm glad you get to go to Africa, that should be tons of fun. I am sorry you are not pregnant and hope the frost babies do better! We wish you the best.
Wouldn't it be great if you got pregnant with a frost baby and you could tell the little one that they lived in a freezer before they were born! They'll be the coolest kid in school.
Natalie-
Your positive attitude is inspiring. I know you must be feeling lots of emotions right now, but I'm glad you have Africa to look forward to. Thanks for sharing this process. I hope it has made it all a little more bearable.
I'm so sorry Natalie. You have amazing strength to endure this. Hang in there.
So sorry - after all the effort too. We are rooting for you guys and love you. :) Hope you're enjoying Africa!!
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